My life has been a bit all over the place. I've moved in with my boyfriend thinking things would go in the right direction of a proposal. COVID hit, he lost his job and I'm not sure if being stuck in a house with no where to go when we did a lot of travel and going out changed things. He grew distant and I noticed change. A year living together and I felt like he wanted me to leave of course now that he found a job. I'm trying to find a new house but in this market it's hard and I had to move back home for the time being. My parents love me but being here I fall into a huge depression and I just pray to find a house. I feel myself sad everyday and depressed. I go to work with challenges there everyday and struggles. I love my I guess now ex boyfriend Elijah. I feel like he is the one and he is the only one that I see myself with. I've had numerous talks with God about this. I know he has his own issues that he needs to accept and workout himself. I pray that with the thought of me gone he sees how much I've been there for him and helped him, I pray that with me being gone he misses me and I pray that he comes back to me to be together and move forward in our relationship. We've been together for several years and I know he needs to help. He let friends get in the way and he lost God.I know we were brought together to help each other and he has helped me so much but he won't open his heart to receive in return. Please I'm a mess and I pray that he feels the things he needs to, to realize we are right for each other. He had a rough up bringing and never had the closeness in family and life that I did. But, I know this is right, I know we are right and I know my future and life should be together and married. Please help me for I can't do this alone in prayer anymore.