I have been told by a very wise person that I am possessed by demons and I believe this 100%. I say that black is white, that wrong is right, and I don't see it until it is screamed at me over and over again, year after year, and then I see the tiniest bit. I cut off my whole family as an adult, and lied saying my parents and siblings were horrible and abused me and that was a lie, but I believed 100% it was true. I need help. The demons are taking over. I have been able to skate through life, have a masters degree, yet am tens of thousands in debt, on welfare, and my dad pays my bills and I'm 37. My friends don't want to talk to me. I want to be very clear. I am not depressed. I am evil to my core. I look back on my life and this possession happened very early on, maybe age 5. I hated my parents and siblings. I still do, yet say they hate me. I cut people off who say I am sick, who tell me the truth. I've been to therapist after therapist who say I'm smart and am in abusive relationships and it's not true. I don't know where to go. I've been in and out of the mental hospital for being suicidal and raging angry. I am going to be thrown out of my house now because I refused to clean up my front yard and while the city was investigating my landlord for being abusive and refusing to fix my broken hvac, which is against the law them doing that, the city has not turned on me and is saying I don't want help and they're going to fine me for repeatedly asking for help. I don't know what to do. I have been in church and around people who say they are Christians my whole life, I went to Awana as a kid for years and memorized bible verses, went to Christian camps in the summer, went to church with my family, but I am broken and it looks like beyond repair. Please don't misunderstand. I know 100% that this is demonic, I have chosen evil, rage, lying to the point I don't know what's true, refusal to answer yes/no questions just like in the bible. I am the idiot and the fool who won't listen and has turned away from God. I pray for Jesus' help and he sends help and I refuse it and say no with my actions from an evil angry hateful heart, yet from my mouth say I want help. Everything in my mind and heart is backwards. Please pray for my soul. I have been told I am going to burn in hell by Jesus loving, God fearing people, that I am possessed by demons and beyond help. I know God is able to do anything, yet over and over again for years, I pray and I pray and I beg God for deliverance, on my knees sobbing and then I keep doing the same evil things, to the point that people are leaving me. The most important person in my life is saying he's stepping back, he's done helping me, and he has sacrificed 7 years of his life trying to help me, begging to help me, begging me to change, and I don't. I say I do, then I don't. I keep lying and deceiving. Please pray for my soul, that Jesus would save my soul and protect me from myself and keep me from eternal hell. Please pray for my dogs. I have brought evil into my house and the wise person told me that my actions have brought so much evil, they will be killed. This may sound extreme, but everything this person has said will happen has happened. They said today would be unlike any other day in my life and it was. The government, with the law on my side, said they will not help me because I have refused help, yet I didn't. I had a car parked on my lawn and a bunch of other stuff, so it was right for them to cite me. The wise person told me to clean up the yard and it was too hard, stuff was too heavy, and I did the best I could then stopped. He knew what was coming, and told me and I didn't listen. Please pray for favor with the city and my landlord. Please pray above everything that I would see and own my sin 100% and that my home and dogs would be protected and that I would be delivered and choose God and Jesus completely with my whole heart. I prayed the sinners prayer over and again and I'm still lying and raging, and evil has taken over my life. Please pray for me, God fearing, Jesus loving people. I need the prayer of thousands. I asked for the wise person to take the demons out of me and they did through prayer and speaking in tongues (I think that's what it was, I don't know for sure) but then after that I kept lying and it got way worse. I killed two dogs with negligence and lying. They died in front of me and I did nothing. The wise person revived one and then it later died. Please pray for God's complete 100% protection of my dogs that they would always be safe. Please pray for my soul. I do not exaggerate, remember I disowned my own flesh and blood, I am a horrible person. There are not words to describe it. The wise person has said I'm like Hitler how hateful I am. Please believe me, I am not exaggerating. I hate every human being, deeply in my heart. Please pray for Jesus' help for me and that I would renounce evil for the remainder of my days and be saved from eternal damnation. Please pray that I would be able to apologize and repent to my entire family before any more of them die. I ask this for myself. I don't think I'll live if my parents die and I haven't told them how evil I was as a child, how I told my sister and brothers my parents weren't trustworthy, raged and hit them, scared them, tormented and lied to them, locked them out of the house to mess with their minds, locked them in the car to mess with their minds, then when they became adults, I told them I loved them and I was so sorry for hurting them, and then stabbed them in the back, lied to them, ignored them. Thank you so much. Please pray that I would eat and sleep so I can stay out of the hospital and get better. The wise person said I will be permanently institutionalized and injected with so much medication I won't remember who I am and wake up 10 years from now wondering what happened, and everyone I love has died. Please pray for me. Please. I will be on the street out of rage, and refusal to accept help and be humble. Please pray that I would want to be humble and loving and kind and honest about who I truly am with everything I have. Thank you.